Holding my head above water

Its been a rough couple of weeks.  I knew it would be it doesn’t make it any easier.  Next week will be my husband’s last week of travel and it can’t come soon enough.  I’m done flying solo and doing everything.  I have no problem admitting that I need him and that I am more balanced when he is around.

Yesterday was our wedding anniversary.  We got up early and I drove him to the airport.  Hugs and kisses were had.  Tears came later as we remembered happy memories through text.  Today is not really easier for me.  I commend military wives who do this for months and even years in support of their husbands.

I still have not had a conversation with him about wanting to become a TTWD couple.  I thought with him gone I could sort my feeling and thoughts out but I can’t right now.  I have found though that the more I submit, the more he leads.  He doesn’t even realize he does it which I love because it’s natural.  The other day I was so worked up, my daughter and I were arguing over HER school project.  She was frustrating the heck out of me because she wanted to do things differently than I felt would be beneficial to her.  Her way wasn’t wrong just different.  We were firing words back and forth and finally my husband made eye contact with me and just said, “Leave It”.  I threw my hands up and walked the other way saying, “Okay, Okay, I know, I know”.  LOL  It’s her school project after all but I was taking it to a different level.    This weekend before he left he said I want to sit down with you and discuss things you need to get done this week.  More and more he has been reminding me of things that need to get done because I LOVE to procrastinate and we get burned sometimes.  We never did sit down because we got busy but for me the fact that he said something shows me that he is aware and wants to help me out. These are just a few examples of little things I have noticed.  To be honest I find it kind of sexy when he steps in and leads.

For now I am doing what I can to be the supportive wife and hold down the fort.  I know he appreciates it because he tells me.